One of my wishes for 2014 is to create a base. I have spent the last many years on the move, always looking for the next adventure, never slowing down. But here we are, 5 days into the new year, and I am beginning to get that feeling in the back of my stomach. I'm thinking more and more about 'the next move', about where to go next. And it frustrates me. I am living in the city I've spent 2 years longing for, and I really am happy to be back. But the butterflies are not there. Sometimes I get a glimpse of one flipping around, but it's more or less just everyday life. The city is there, but I don't know where I am. I hope it's just a pang of winter blues, of missing my friends back home or money-worries talking, not some deeper problem. Maybe my wish for 2014 should be to figure out what to do with it all...
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Johanna; Definitely!
I guess this happens in Berlin when you have been living here for some time: you settle down, days become more routine and less "berlinesque" weird, the butterflies in your stomach become less - and then winter is not the best season to strengthen your love for this city as well.
But wait for spring and the butterflies will be back, I promise! ;o)
Fräulein Julia; Thanks. You're absolutely right. Today is sunny, and I feel everything looking better already - it probably is just winter blues after endless grey days :)
i really love berlin and i love to be here. dont need anything "berlinish" in my life, just the city itself. but I guess this kinda "life blues" is caused by the internet. just as simple as it sounds. guess its because we are forced to see what other people have and love and get and are going to be. i know this feeling - sometimes im just frustrated and sad about all the possibilities we could have but we cannot get. i love to be here but i would also love to live in new york, seattle or sweden but i simply cant decide. and it frustrates me. guess we just forget to love our life. sad but im happy anyway. :)
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